It's confirmed

We all lost someone really close to us today. Michael has been there through my entire childhood. I will never forget the memories of sneaking into my grandma's record collection and listening to his album. My favorite line was always at the end of "The girl is Mine" with Paul McCartney where he says " I already told you Paul, Im a lover not a Fighter" I would listen to that over and over again along with thriller and Bad. I knew every single word to his songs before I could even spell my own name.
I will also never forget listening to Black and white on the new walkman that I got for one of my birthdays and sliding around in the kitchen in my socks. Michael always kept me positive through tough times growing up and I know that he could rest in peace knowing that he will forever live in our hearts.

Facebook is blowing up right now with rumors that Michael Jackson may have passed away today. He was rushed to the hospital because of cardiac arrest. Theres no real report that hes dead 'cept from tmz and we all know that's just bullshit. He's currently in a coma and not doing too well.

I love Michael. Id be sad to see him go, maybe even shed a tear. Granted the past few years hes been a complete parody of himself; this doesnt mean hes any less of a person and deserves any less grief. If you didn't know already, Farrah Faucet also died today. Well, really died. It breaks my heart to hear people say things like
"I'm more sad to see her go" or vice versa. These are real people!! These are real lives that have or may be lost. To those of you who think just because Michael is a little bit on the crazy side that his death doesnt matter then SHAME ON YOU! Micheal and Farrah have both given more to us than all you haters out there.

Just some run-on thoughts

Ok so its been quite a while and I cant even begin to tell you what has been going on in my life since my last "real" post. Theres so much fuckery goin on around here that I dont even know where to begin.

I guess I'll start out by saying SCHOOLS OUT! WOOO! Ive been so absorbed with going to school every day/night that I havent had time to spend it with the most important people in my life, including myself. And now that schools finito I'm working full time, so more money for more fun (and shopping of course. I've been losing my mind thinking of things I want to buy but cant.)

HURRAY FOR SUMMER! beaches, tans, swimming, parties. love it!

I plan on taking a buttload of dance classes at hype studios with Chieko and I'm really looking foward to it. Sometimes I forget how much I love to dance and how it keeps me sane, until I stop and begin to lose my mind again.

The dating situation is at a standstill for now. I know my prince (or princess) is out there somewhere. Theres no use in searching. when the time is right the perfect person will come to me and I will be ready to love them once I have learned how to love myself.

HMMM. what else can I ramble on about while I'm sitting here at work doing nothing...

My dreads are coming along quite nice! I've been working really hard on them, making sure to crochet and wash and keep them tidy. I also dyed them an auburn color. :D They are now 6 months old. I need to start taking more pictures of them so I can create a timeline of their progression. I cant believe its been 6 months since day one. Time goes so fast. Im noticing a little bit of growth too. :) I cant wait until they are at least down to mid back. By that time I'll have my braces off and I'll be WAY HOT. Finally. I'm going through a teenage like awkward stage and I cant wait till this shit is over.

Im 23 for christ sake.

In due time

Its been a while since I've had time to sit down and collect my thoughts in this thing. Not that anyone really reads it anyways. I'm going through some things in my life that I'm not sure I'm 100% prepared to deal with. My relationships with people I care about the most seem to be fading quickly and I don't know how to stop it. I don't know where this isolation comes from or what I do to make people think that Id rather be left alone. But what I need more than anything is friends.

I just cant wait until school is over and things are a little more worry free.